i wish i had a remote control to manage parts of my life. just think about it. things you messed up or want to redo would simply be a little 'rewind', and you could press 'pause' when you needed a break. things you don't want to slip away too fast could be played in 'slow motion', things that aren't pleasant could be passed over by a quick flick of the 'fast forward' button. when things just get too unruly or overwhelming, you simply press 'stop'.
i'm sure there are many things everyone would love to 'rewind' and do-over, but sometimes i'd like to rewind just to have that time back. i'm not sure i'd 'fast foward' through much (except sicknesses and unpleasant situations). i'd hate to miss out on the growth you get from living through tough times (though if they went a little faster, it wouldn't be all bad), and if i fixed all of my mistakes, would i ever learn from them?
so really, all i wish i could do is hit 'pause' every now and then. sometimes i'd just hit it to enjoy the moment a little longer, to savor the experience and make sure i remember it perfectly.
but more than anything, i'd love to have a 'pause' button....just so i could take a break from life...
...from working full-time in a job that is too dumbed-down for my full potential, where i'm the peon of people who do a mediocre job at best sometimes and i could surpass their skills if i had their credentials...
...from dealing with a sick kid whose issues are still undiagnosed except for the word "chronic" being thrown around for everything (chronic sinusitis, chronic headaches, chronic asthma, blah, blah, blah) and no one can seem to figure out how to help stop a chronic situation so this kid can have a normal life...
...from the morning sickness and nausea and exhaustion of being pregnant...
...from trying to finish my college degree as a 35 year-old working mom...
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my list could go on, but since i don't have a remote control with a 'pause' button for my life, i vent in a blog and then jump back into life...
...and try to live it to the fullest, even if mine seems to be too full at times!
