wow, i think that might almost be a record of time between posts....
okay, so things are working out really well in some areas and not so well in others...
work---que sera, sera! i'm no longer allowing myself to stress over stuff for the most part. i go in and do what i can do, and leave it to that. it's not "fun" like it used to be, but i'm doing my job and kids are learning, so that's good.
school finances---due to unforseen circumstances that got really bad, but turned out to be a good thing... i've applied for financial aid and will most likely get a grant or two and some loans. the plan is to start in january, registration for classes begins this week.
church---the good, the bad, and the ugly... women of faith conference was really good, just what i needed when marilyn meberg totally hit me in the face with what i needed to hear (see below). we're growing, expanding and planning to move into a new facility soon too. church still hurts though, you have to actually open up to experience it fully and i try and then get smacked upside the head again, so then i close off again. i've got too many issues, and it seems to keep replaying over and over and over.
spiritually---i've been so dry for so long, ever since leaving our church in 2004 i've felt so far from God much of the time. i've pretty much put up walls every time i've been hurt, they'll get picked at a bit, but never totally torn down before another one goes up. marily meberg basically said that the callousness not only keeps us from opening up to relationships to others like we should, but keeps God out too... so true! so i'm working on that.
family finances---a definite roller coaster. summer happens and we're tight, school/work starts and we're good, unforseen stuff comes up and we're bad again...but it not only caused "good" for school finances, it's going to be good for family finances too.... merry christmas to us! and a happy new year too!
vision and ministry---i'm starting a homebased internet business, and the potential is awesome! not only for our family's financial well-being, but also for our heart for ministry. not wanting to cross bridges before we come to them, but this could definitely end up opening some awesome doors to minister in our community and to unknown other possibilities beyond our locality. at first, the greedy side of me just wanted to "make money, money, make money, money, money" as john reuben had us sing at journeyfest. sure, i want to own my own home and have reliable vehicles that aren't on the verge of breaking down, but do i need 10 acres and a huge house with horses? (that's my "earthly dream") i've reeled it in, and if/when the business reaches its full potential, we'll live off of "x" amount of money and everything else will be tagged for ministry, helping family, college funds, and retirement, and in that order. hubby's had a dream since early in our marriage, it was long-forgotten until recently, but this could potentially make that happen. prayers for God's blessings are greatly appreciated, we want to glorify Him through this business venture and the focus is more on what we can do for the Kingdom when this is successful, rather than what is God going to give us.
family---elisabeth broke her arm last week and is dealing with some issues, and nick has been dealing with the asthma/allergy/sinus stuff and some other things as well...hopefully everything will smooth out soon and calm down! we got a new family member though....rushmore is our new kitty, and he's as cute as can be! rocky (our basset hound dog) and rushmore play and fight just like normal siblings do....so much fun and excitement around here!!!
marriage---jerry and i realized we've been together for just over 17 years now. it's awesome, and i still love this man so much!
well, that's it. much better than my september rant. now i'm going to try to post things i'm thankful for on a daily basis...i need to count my blessings more often!
