As the new year has begun, hubby's search for God's place for us has continued. This weekend will make three in a row that he's interviewed. Last weekend's trip to South Carolina was a good one. We met some really great people who were so open and hospitable to us, you could just see God's love through their welcoming spirit. If that is the door God opens, I would be honored to walk through it and become part of a community of such warm, loving people. Of course, there are other doors that need to be knocked on also, which is the reason we're going on yet another road trip this weekend!
I'm just praying that we can find the right place and KNOW that it's the right place too. I'm tired of moving, tired of starting over where we think we're supposed to be, to find out that it wasn't what we thought it was going to be. I know that NO place is going to be perfect, and there will always be problems of some kind. I just want to be in a place where problems will be worked through, not given up on. A place where God's love is shown through His people, no matter what human emotions get in the way. A place where the people follow the example of Christ and love unconditionally everyone who comes into their lives. Hindsight shows me that these things were apparent even before directed in our direction, I just pray that I will see clearly the people around me for how they really are before I get in the path of their fury, yet again. I don't want to have walls or barriers keeping people from getting close, but it's hard not to when you've been burned so many times by people who were supposed to be closest to you. I want to be in a situation where I can grow spiritually and stumble occasionally without judgement, to be loved for who I am, not "who" my husband is or what he does for a living.
Prayer for guidance, patience and wisdom. I need patience, because I am tired of waiting on God and want to know "now" the things I want to know. I need guidance in making right decisions for our family and wisdom on how to make the decisions that will affect our family. I also need to allow myself to follow my husband and his leadership, as his calling is to follow God's will for his life, and sometimes I let my "wants" get in the way of letting him follow the calling he has been given.
Hopefully, we'll know "something" soon as to what God wants. But until then I will try to be patient and continue to pray for everyone involved in all of the decisions that will affect our family and our lives.
Trying to be patient.....hurry up God!!! :)
