I'm one of the world's worst procrastinators, and I admit that. I won't go to the extreme of saying I'm "the" world's worst, I'm sure there are people out there who are even more so than I! But on top of that, I'm also a perfectionist. At work I've been labeled "The Overachiever"...but really I'm the classic underachiever, at least in my mind. If only I could get motivated to do stuff outside of work the way I do my job, then I'd definitely be an Overachieving Perfectionist, but at home and in my personal life I'm an Underachieving Procrastinator. I'm the epitome of an oxymoron I guess, or maybe I'm just a moron! hehe The problem is that "if it's worth doing at all, it's worth doing right" and I haven't had time to do things to the level of "right" that I "have" to do them, so they just go undone.
Anyway, with half of the month over, we have only half of the month left to find a place to live. Not to mention the fact that I have a stack of folded up boxes leaning against the wall in the corner of my living room ready to be filled. I haven't dropped off the stuff to charity that's been sitting in my van for 3 weeks, I haven't been to my storage unit to take stuff I KNOW is going to charity out and get it out of the way. I work best when under pressure, and I fear that I'm seeing that pattern happening in this situation, even though with all that is in me I want this move to go smoothely and un-stressed and un-last-minute. "If only" I didn't "have" to work... "If only" I weren't tutoring... "If only" I weren't working two evenings at the preschool for that discount in tuition... "If only".....yeah right, just more excuses, or are they good reasons for me not to be motivated to work my butt off when I get home after being my usual "overachieving" self all day?
Jerry's gone, so I'm "single mom". When he comes home, it's my "day off" but instead of getting stuff done, we're trying to make up for the lost time we missed while he was away. I guess we'd better just start ignoring the "family time" and buckle down on the organization for the move, and wait to catch up on the family time when June comes, right? But that's hard to do when we've been without our "Honey/Daddy" for several days and nights!!! Like now, he left a day early because of a youth event...next week he'll have one less evening here because of a church administration meeting. Oh, and next Saturday is Nick's "belated birthday/going away" swim party...yeah, I'll get lots of packing/organizing done next weekend, won't I? Especially since I'm planning to take the kids to our new church next Sunday for worship and the church picnic.
Okay, I guess I need to go and start making a list. Maybe I can actually get "something" done around here if I had an idea of where I should start...there's so much it's just overwhelming. But I'll tackle it like I would eat an elephant..."one bite at a time." I just hope I can stomach all of it!!!
