for the past two nights, not sure why. I've been doing searches on MySpace and Xanga and have found some cool past connections, and some surprises with what people are doing too.....strange how things turn out MUCH differently than you assume they will! (But we all know what ASS-U-ME means, right?)
I'm not sure what the deal-e-o was about that dream the other day, but I'm over it. It was just weird.
Anyway, as long as Jerry gives his acceptance to Jeff, it's official that he'll be on staff with Grace Community starting in April, which is when we have our launch. I'm so excited about our new church and how God brought us back to Wesley Chapel. Things were crazy after the move (well honestly, they have been for the past 2 years, but it was growing time...) and sometimes I wondered what the heck God had in store for us. We're starting to reconnect with old friends, connect more with old acquaintances, and make new connections with new friends, it's really exciting.
I don't know what it was, but today I feel like I've been lifted out of my "2 year funk". It was weird because it didn't happen until this evening. After school today, I ran to the bank (payday wroks) and then to the house to get Nick's soccer practice gear. Once he threw on his soccer clothes, I took him to a teammate's house where he had dinner and they took him to practice. Then, I dropped Elisabeth off at Jeff and Heather's where she was going to hang out with their crew for the evening (eating pizza and watching "Bambi 2"). At this point I had one hour to drive home (in Friday rush-hour traffic), take a quick shower (mostly to wash my hair), get dressed and drive back through more traffic. Yes, I was late (what's new, seems to be the norm these days), but I met up with Jerry (no kids for the first time since moving back here in August) and we joined a few others for "Couples Night Out" with Grace Community. It wasn't a huge turn-out, but we had a good time drinking frozen and hot cappuccinos, eating yummy desserts, and getting to know new people. (And I got to bring home a half-dozen red roses and at least that many pieces of Dove chocolates!!!) I met the president of Jeff's seminary and his wife, they were missionaries in Taiwan for 20 years, which I thought was so cool. Anyway, this event just made it more apparent that we're in the right place. Along with the connection we're making with a friend of mine from school (Nick's teammate's family), it seems to be becoming a good thing. Those things along with a really silly vanity thing, seemed to just be what I needed to end my major funk.
The vanity thing, you ask? I don't know if anyone else thought so or not, but I felt like for the first time in what seems like forever, I looked good. No, not because I've lost tons of weight in the past couple of weeks (though I have lost about 5 pounds now---yay me!!!), but because I actually liked the way my hair looked this evening! (Dumb, I know.) I donated 11 inches of my hair to Locks of Love in July 2004, and have barely cut it since(only had it cut twice since then), and it's just now at a length that makes me happy. It's kind of a sign/symbol to me...it's taken almost 2 years of regrowth to get to where I feel steady and secure, even though life isn't ever really certain.
So yeah, hopefully this is a new thing....feeling positive and not negative. Feeling good about myself, my life, my family, my church and my surroundings. I need to have more connection time with God, but just to get out of my funk for one night might be what I've needed to get myself to where I can work on that again too. I've felt abandoned by Him, and now I feel like I can finally try to approach Him and let Him back into being an active part of my life. Not because of any major "spiritual experience", but just because I feel like the funk is gone!
Wow, I feel so unstressed at this moment....if only this feeling could last! (Now to get some sleep before a day of soccer---8:30 a.m. game thankyouverymuch---and buddies joining Nick for milkshakes and a movie. Night owl life is going to catch up with me....gonna have to drink a bit of coffee tomorrow!!!)
